11 DAY BEFORE START OF CLINICAL ROTATION

 Hello everyone and the most important hello shahirah in the future, 

this current shahirah is struggle

she feels as if the spirit and enthusiasm that she felt when she was in year 1 dying slowly

I know, whatever happened around me occur for a reason. lemme recall to you if you happened to forget about it: 

- one of the male student of your batch contracted covid and spread it to his gym members

- in the end, 15 students from year 3 got infected with covid-19 (including F, your housemates)

- you were a category B student and ordered mandatory quarantine.

- got two gelang, pink (uitm) & white (KKM)

- ate bland hospital foods for 12 days 

- faculty ordered us to relocate according to posting </3

- was given 15 days break for contract tracing and all (the most devastating time - i spent it doing stupid things. i hate hate myself so much for wasting it away like that!!!) 

Tomorrow, phpm will continue as set by the coordinator. 

when we were given order to go back to uni, 

i was so excited 

i thought, "yes! now i can study with full attention as there will be no distraction from fam"

i was totally wrong. 

I procrastinated a lot. I did not revise my lectures that I skip

I attended class but on my bed, eyes close sleeping deeply :(

I felt so bad to my mum. 

she is always dead worried about me, if she knew the truth, she must be very disappointed in me 

(11.56PM, 3/2/21)