0 DAYS BEFORE PRE-CLINICAL PRO: D-DAY!! 🥺 (Part 1)

19.07.2020

A day before D-day.. 

It was 3PM.. I was having a MENTAL BREAKDOWN.

Never in my life, I was shivering and crying because of afraid

I had exams, so many times in my life. 

But that was one of the exams, that I felt so scared and terrified. 

Ya Allah, can I do this? 

Then I looked into my parents face.. My heart shattered into pieces. Everything became so clear. I may have screwed 50% of my times that I supposed to use it for study, but I still have 12 hours before the exams. My mom had helped me this entire time, my lecturers had spent most of their time helping us and the fac had tried their best to provide us a platform to test our knowledge. So, why should I give up before trying? 

I texted my housemates, friends and family and the most important person for me.. My mentor, Dr Ruzain.

He had helped me so much during this entire time. He looked upon me as his adik instead of student. May Allah shower you and your family with rezeki and happiness. Aminn

I grabbed all my lectures notes and started reviewing it all. 

I was so nervous that night, I managed to get quick nap for 2 hours. 

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20.7.2020

Woke up at 6.30AM,

Prayed my subuh and quickly went up and hugged my mum. 

With tears and cold extermities, I hugged my mum and whispered to her "Tolong doakan orang mak. Doakan org boleh faham soalan, ingat dan boleh jawab kesemuanya." I was so desperate for help.. I did not know many things and I just finished studying all of it yesterday at 3PM.

She gosok my shoulder and said "boleh punya". :) I felt calm. 

I texted my friends to wish them good luck and bismillah..

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12.45PM, 

I clicked submit and that marked the end of my part 1. 

ALHAMDULILAH, ALLAHUAKBAR!!

I was so bersyukur and lega. 

1 out of 2 dah habis. 

Semoga Allah lembutkan hati pemeriksa dan terangkan hati mereka agar mereka mudah nak faham what I'm tryna said. Aminn